Life through my eyes

Here I am. There you are. This time around last year. I was a whole different person. I had a whole different mind. I hated everything and everyone. I hated the way people talked I hated the way everyone was Alive inside. 1 year later here I am a new Women. I say that with pride. A year ago you would have asked me who I was I would have said "An empty soul" Now I say I am a person with lots of things to say and not afraid to say it. The "drugs" helped. It helped a lot. But the drugs took me as far as I was willing to go. I decided to go all the way. This is me now. A new beginning. A second chance. The chance to be everything I ever dreamn't of when i was a child in my little room full of spice girls posters and all my little stickers. I would have never guessed how my life would be in a few years. But life isn't always what you dream. It takes unexpected turns. Its up to you to get back on track. I'm looking for someone to understand an appreciate how complicated I am and to love how weird I am. Anyone who makes a joke out of pure and true emotions has an issue bigger than what ever that person is feeling. I have learned that. Yes you may laugh and call me "emo" as the kids say. I dont care. I have things to say. Hate it or Love it. I dont care. I will not let a day go by where I will not express what I am passionate about that day. If I die everyone will know who I truly was. Not some made up character who was to afraid to speak their mind because they were afraid of people not agreeing with them or because they felt their feelings were a joke and something that should remain hidden deep inside. This is who I am. I love it and hate it. But I cant change it.