Long lost love more like Dead on Arrival

What am I to do? Dont I deserve the fairytale? I know that people say they dont exist and I feel stupid for wanting it but its what I want. I need to have it. What good is materialistic things and diplomas after diploma if I cant share that with anyone.? I deserve it. I do. It sounds weird and wrong saying it but I dont think Im a horrible person. I go out of my way to help others. Yet no on comes and saves me, no one comes to save me from me and this box that im living in. the box that i have is nice and okay and safe but its not what i want. I want to get out of the box and live! live and love like never before. I dont want to be the sidekick. I want to be the superhero! I hate feeling this because ive come soo far and I never want to go back to the way I was before. I cant and wont. I worked to hard for this. But a person can feel sad sometimes. and boy is it coming. What to do? i have no idea. Im soo lost! Well not much to do... but do what I always do. Keep on moving. Keep on working at my goals and just keep on living. Live and just watch it all go by. Watch the boat sail into the sunset without me.